Metal! Asking Alexandria - Not The American Average

2012

Dear 2012,
You are the year I am going to STOP letting people WALK ALL OVER ME! And start having more Self-Confidence! :) You are the year I will make my voice HEARD! You are the year I start LOVING MYSELF <3 instead of listening to everyone elses opinion about ME.
Sincerly, Me!

December 31, 2011

I know that there have been many, many times during the past year where I have felt ashamed, angry and immature. There have been times where I spoke thoughtlessly, hurt people, refused to take responsiblity and pretended to be stupider than I am. I regret a lot.


But in spite of that, the people arround me have accepted me. Even if it was hard, they've remained my friends, and shown me kidness. For that, I am thankful. In 2012, I will repay them. I will love as much as I have been loved and stay strong for those who were strong for me. I won't run away and I promise that this year, I'll give it everything I have.

Close Ur Eyes and Leap!

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it's time. Don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Make something beautiful and then destroy it. Meet new people. Make someone's day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to its full potential. Just live, dammit. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and just fucking love. And one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year 2012!

Its really amazing. Im happy and cannt describe how deeply my happiness now. Meskipun jauh dari kedua orangtua, keluarga dan kedua sahabat, namun aku merasakan kebahagiaan lain disini. Bersama AW... Indah, Mega, Kak Eca, kak Asto, kak Ideal, kak Fendy, kak Bayu W, kak Bayu E, kak Bemby, kak Fuad, dan kak Ubay. 

Bersama kak Eca, Indah dan Mega

Keceriaan mereka membawa warna baru dipenghujung tahun 2011. Setidaknya aku tidak kesepian secara fisik. Meskipun sejujurnya, aku merasakan kesepian ditengah keramaian tersebut. Aku benar-benar merindukan moment tahun baru yang sebelumnya. Aku hampir menangis. Aku merenung dipojokkan. Berharap yang ku alami ini hanya mimpi buruk dan aku segera terbangun....